A Quiet Christmas

What makes a quiet Christmas? When you see photos from other people, and knowing that you aren’t with them.  You realize how quiet the house is, and no one has woken you up on Christmas Day. The FOMO is strong as you contemplate that you have sent and received your presents early, but have waited until December 25 to open them. Anticipation makes the gifts more special.

My younger brother doesn’t like the song “Blue Christmas”. I found out while singing it this weekend, and he expressed his displeasure about it. The funny thing is it wasn’t even the full song, but part of a medley that I had learned back in middle school. The song is cathartic for me when I know Christmas is quiet. In this case, I sang to myself, knowing who wouldn’t be here on Christmas Day.

This is the first Christmas in a few years where my older siblings aren’t here. That’s because they both have families now, and it’s a transitional period. The photos of my niblings in Christmas wear do give a person holiday FOMO. I’ll see my older brother tomorrow, but Boxing Day isn’t quite the same.

Yet there are ways I am celebrating. My younger brother and I opened presents in the morning after he woke up, and I’m doing a Muppets watch of Elmo Saves Christmas and The Muppet Christmas Carol. Other friends are telling me how their holidays are going, and I’m reading a book that my best friend gifted me. It has art theft, heists conducted in broad daylight, and mutual betrayals between a mother and son as she discovers his crimes. I’ve also run a load of laundry, to fold before bed.

Not every Christmas will go according to plan. But we can still make the most of such a day, with tiny joys and little celebrations.